audrey

audbeachstar @ 2004-10-27T20:15:00

2004-10-28T00:17:21Z

"Don't stop trying, there's always reason to go on living
as long as you can breathe
stay clear of extremes
just say what you mean
but try not to be mean

you should say thank you often, like your hair
wave to strangers everywhere
do what your supposed to do
don't look at what the others do

think before you buy a car don't marry someone
you met at a bar
there's no suchthing as going too far
love who you are

don't be scared of what's ahead
but wear a helmet to protect your head
be aware, say you care, don't say fair...

Stay close to the hand that raised you
watch for signs
never waste expensive wine
spoil your body, spoil yourself
never cheat and share your wealth

sing when you're glad
close the door if you sound bad
don't believe a man who knows he's right
don't skip ahead, enjoy your flight

be nice to your dog,
drive slow in the fog
convince yourself to write a song
change clothes everyday
call ahead when you're late
be safe when you're planning to get laid

read what you like
be on your brother's side
it's okay to wonder why
but don't expect to understand your life

don't expect to understand your life ..."
-Sarah Bettens

WOW

2004-08-01T04:36:21Z

its been SOOOOO long since Ive updated, since i dont really do this anymore...its like new and exciting if I do...

You've got to get better it's all in your head
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
We tried to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about

When all that you need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
When chasing our dreams is just a distraction
I want to remember when I know that I can't go back

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
We tried to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about

There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
We tried to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing

There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.

-Taking Back Sunday (tomorrow at warped)

YOU ARE AWESOME.

2004-01-20T23:27:12Z

* First of all - March 3 = Mae,Copeland, The Working Title & Slow coming Day.....doesn't get much better than that folks...

*Id like to say sorry to all of Patrick's friends, I know this hurt everyone...

-School is awesome...thats all I can say...(sarcasim, if you didnt notice..)
Im taking the SAT's on Saturday, wow Im ganna do horrible...oh yea, today's Meredith's birthday! 14, great...ummm I mean theres not much else for me to say write now, Im at a lack of words...so here:

After All These Years- Silverchair

Breathe in the night
That crushed and tired sunrise
Born again the day
Brings young naivety

A laptop souvenir is worth its weight
In silver a golden sun
You'll be home again
And I'll be home again

Mend in my sleep
I'm boxing under water
Waddle on the wake
Waking on a summer day

After all these years
Forget about all the troubled times
After all these years
Forget about all the troubled times

And every father's pain
Casts a shadow over a broken son
You'll be whole again
And I'll be whole again
Munificent, artless and ascetic
Playing like a scared
Enthusiastic pawn

After all these years
Forget about all the troubled times
After all these years
Forget about all the troubled times

All those years
I was hurting to feel
Something more than life

After all these years
Forget about all the troubled times
After all these years
Forget about all the troubled times

All those years
I was hurting to feel
Something more than life.

audbeachstar @ 2004-01-14T20:50:00

2004-01-15T01:59:04Z

Hey guys, Ive been busy lately and not really writing, but I will-promise. Anways, if you could PLEASE go to: http://www.fm97.com/MorningShow/index.html and vote for my friend Bourke Floyd that'd be awesome, its a really funny contest he got nominated for, but we really want him to win, so rack up the votes! Thanks!

Im hoooommee...

2004-01-04T16:46:02Z

Hey guys, I just got back from Philly/NYC! It was tons of fun, I stayed w/ Stu's family whom Im good friends with! Everything went well except I got strep for new years and was on the couch for 3 days. But everything else was awesome...Im not too happy about school tomorrow..but I'll see everyone soon! Hope you all are doing great!

audbeachstar @ 2003-12-23T03:03:00

2003-12-23T08:38:52Z

001) What time are you starting this?: 3:03am (wow..i have a life..)
002) Name?:Audrey Helow
003) Date of birth?: 5-20-86
004) Sex?: f
005) Height?: 5'3.5"
006) Eye color?: chocolate
007) Weight?: 110? no idea
008) Location?: Jax
009) Where were you born?: jax
010) Have you ever failed a grade?: no
011) If you have, what grade did you fail?:
012) Do you have crush on someone?: i have a bf..
013) Do you have a bf/gf?: yep
014) If so, what is their name:stu
015) How long have you been together?: a year and 3 months
016) What are you wearing right now?: jeans,white collered shirt
017) Would you have sex before marriage?: I dunno
018) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: haha, not a crush..
019) Are you a virgin?: Yes.
020) Do you smoke?: no
021) Do you drink?: when i need to..
022) Are you ghetto?: i dont think so..
023) Are you a player?: NO
024) What are your favorite colors?: aqua,purple,red (clothing)
025) What is your favorite animal(s)?: horse
026) Do you have any birthmarks?: yes, one on my head and one on my leg
027) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?:no! i do the ass-kickin
028) Who are your best friends?: is this a joke? im not ganna name them all...mae.
029) Have you ever beat someone up?: hmmm
030) Who do you talk to most on the phone?: stu
031) Have you ever been slapped?: haha yes
032) Do you get online a lot?: yeah -uhhg
033) Are you shy or outgoing?: out going..yes..very
034) Do you shower?: yeah
035) Do you hate school?: im not sure
036) Do you have a social life?: duh
037) How easily do you trust people? too easily
038) Have you ever lied to your bestfriends?: not usually
039) Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: who doesnt?
040) Would you ever sky dive?: yes, someday...
041) Do you like to dance?: oh yeah!!!
068) Have you ever been out of state?: yeah,thank goodness
069) Do you like to travel?: word.
070) Have you ever been expelled from school?: noo
071) Have you ever been suspended from school?: noo
071) Do you want to get out of your hometown?: of course
072) Are you spoiled?: no
073) Are you a brat?: hope not
074) Have you ever been dumped?: middle school..how lame
075) Have you ever gotten high?: nope
076) What's your favorite drink?: orange cream soda
077) Do you like Snapple?: sure
078) Do you drink a lot of water?: not enough
079) What toothpaste do you use?: crest
080) Do you have a cell phone or pager?:cell
081) Do you have a curfew?: daily
082) Who do you look up to?: everyone,im short...and mae
083) Are you a role model?: that would be nice
085) What name brand do you wear the most?: no idea
086) What kind of jewelry do you wear?: earings...necklace..bracelets sometimes
087) What do you have pierced?: ears and side of my ear
088) What do you want pierced?: hmmm
089) Do you like taking pictures?: yeah, a lot
090) Do you like getting your picture taken?: yes,i was born for the camera,haha
091) Do you have a tan?: thats my middle name in the summer
092) Do you get annoyed easily?:depends who im around..
093) Have you ever started a rumor?:its so fun
094) Do you have your own phone/phone line?: no , well..cell
095) Do you have your own pool?: yea, its shaped like a hippo
096) Do you have any siblings?: 2 sisters, katie and meredith
097) Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: boxer
098) Have you ever been played?: no
099) Have you ever played anyone?: nah
100) Do you get along with your parents?: yeah
102) How do you vent your anger?: listen to mae really loud
103) Have you ever run away?: not past my street..
104) Have you ever been fired from a job?: never had one
105) Do you even have a job?: no, but id like to make money
106) Do you daydream a lot?: all the time
107) Do you have a lot of exes?: not really
108) Do you run your mouth?: probly
109) What do you want a tattoo of?: chinese symbol for 'mae'
110) What do you have a tattoo of?:fin,haha
111) What are your favorite flowers?: daisy
112) What does your ex bf/gf look like?: dark skinned, black hair, athletic
113) What does your most recent crush look like?: tall, brown hair, hott as hell
114) Have you ever been bitched out?: hmm..yess
115) When was the last time you bitched someone out?: i dont normally do that..
116) Are you rude?: i better not be
117) What was the last compliment you received?: "hottie" haha
118) Do you like getting dirty?: yes, but i hate cleaning up..good one
119) Is your bellybutton an innie or outie?: in
120) Are you flexible?: if i try
121) A. What is your heritage?: 50% arabic, lebanese
121) B. If you actually read this entire thing I will make love to you. what?
122) What is your lucky number?: 2 or 22 or 26
123) What does your hair look like right now?: brown w/ some light red and blond streaks, somewhat below my shoulders
124) Could you ever be a vegetarian?: no, chicken
125) When was your last real heartbreak?: middle school
126) Describe your looks?: short,thin,i dunno!
127) If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?: streaky
128) Would you ever date someone younger than you?: yeah
129) Would you ever date someone older than you?: yeah
130) When was the last time you were drunk?: halloween
131) When was the last time you went on a date?: i dunno
132) Would you rather give or receive oral sex?: receive, duh
133) Have you ever given?: yep
134) Have you ever received?: yeah
135) Have you ever had an eating disorder?: no way i eat a lot
136) Do you have one now?: no, why would you ask that though?
137) How many rings until you answer the phone?: 3
138) Have you ever been skinnydipping?: yeah,fun stuff
139) If yes, when was the last time?: i dunno..
140) Do you look more like your mother or father?:dad
141) Do you cry a lot?: not really
142) Do you ever cry to get your way?: no, i cant make myself
143) If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: my left arm
144) What phrase do you use most when on the phone?: like (i hate it!)
145) Are you the romantic type?: yeah
146) Have you ever been chased by cops?:uhh..no..
147) What do you like most about your body?:(i hate this question) my stomach i guess..
148) What do you like least about your body?: my skinny calves
150) When was the last time you threw up?: i dont remember
151) In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: depends
152) What do the shoes you last wore look like?: green chucks
153) Do you ever wear shirts to show your belly?: not really
154) What about cleavage?: i dont have any anyways
155) Is your best friend a virgin?: most of them
156) Have you ever fucked someone up?: ummmm..no!
157) Have you ever been fucked up?: haha hmm..
158) What color are your underwear right now?: pink :)
159) What theme does your room have?: aqua..surfer..mae...pics..audrey
160) What size shoe do you wear?: 7 1/2
161) What jewelry are you wearing now?: my bandana necklace
162) What is your screen name on AIM?: duchess502
163) Would you pick a wedgie in public?: yeah, no one cares
164) How are you feeling right now?: hungry
165) When was the last time you were at a party?: dunno
166) Have you ever given a lapdance?: no!
167) What do you sleep in?: boxers and tshirts
168) Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?: yeah, im sure
169) What is one of your bad qualities?:im real loud..
170) What is one of your good qualities?: outgoing
171) Would you marry for money?: no way, i make the money
172) What do you drive?: red lancer
173) Have you ever given or received roadhead?: thats ridiculous
174) Are you more of a mama or daddy's child?: neither
175) What does your lj username mean?: i like the beach?
176) What's your favorite lj to read?: duno
177) When was the last time you cried in school?: sometime this year
178) Do you wear Chucks?: yea baby
179) For two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy?: ummm..thats a damn good question..
180) What time are you finishing this?: 3:38am...once again: i have no life

audbeachstar @ 2003-12-22T14:47:00

2003-12-22T19:48:40Z

..Meredith getting her ears peirced by Mom, and my shoving the earing through as she screams...

"shhhh! When people talk I hurt everywhere" - Meredith Helow

the 'other' Stuart...

2003-12-19T06:01:21Z

Stuart (not my bf) - but my friend - is in town, yey! He goes to college up in Maine but he's back for x-mas.
Its a little weird talking about another Stuart, especially since Stuart always seems to come down to visit whenever my Stuart goes up to his home to visit...so its like, no matter what, I always have a Stuart here...hah.
Stuart,Christine and Scotty stopped by tonight..it was nice, I had just gotten back from the chorus Disney trip and I needed a change in enviroment. It's always nice to see a face you've missed.. we had some good conversations,as usual..but they always seem to end up about body parts..
Its funny that my sister's finally in town and i havent even seen her yet..shes out w/ Edd- as can be expected..
I should be asleep, I have to go to the orthodontist in the a.m. - but there's no way Im sleeping now...

audbeachstar @ 2003-12-19T00:52:00

2003-12-19T05:52:11Z

"Hello, grab your bag and let's go. More out of place than anything you know.
Like an opera at a disco. When all you wanted was a rock show tonight. These
lights, are they hanging in the
distance? Did they glimmer for an instant? When they're shinning do you feel
all right? Know love, you were looking good tonight.

This is the last call. Too long to list it. Please don't you miss it. Don't
give up and let them hold you down when they tell you no. We could burn this
town." - Mae

"make the change, it's worth a try, whats broken can be fixed tonight"-Mae

2003-12-14T05:00:02Z

Tonight Stuart and I couldnt find anything to do...
We ended up making brownies and watching Finding Nemo...it was nice.

I miss my sister much, sometimes I forget she's in Charleston and I go down to her room..but she's not there..

Ive decided there are too many wonderful bands in the world and not enough time to listen to them all...
- I think I know why I have some kind of obsession w/ Mae...because no matter how bad things are, they're always my escape, and garunteed to make me feel good..there arent too many things like that..

I see the problem...

2003-12-12T03:21:53Z

It's time..all school has been doing lately is taking away my time and energy..Id actually write in my live journal if I felt I had TIME! But Im making it a point to start writing again, I must MAKE time!

Mae is amazing..you make think Im obsessed..but...I am.

I miss Kate! I want to go to Charelston and give her a big hug!

Noel has a livejournal, awesome. He's the best teacher Ive ever had, I just...get him.

Its been sooooo long...

2003-11-23T07:42:31Z

Its been FOREVER since Ive written in this....so I just thought id let everyone know Im still here and alive...

Bands to check out: my boyfriends band : 'Love Left Ashes'
all time fav.: 'Mae'

help!

2003-05-23T22:57:37Z

STUART NEEDS A HOME TO BOARD!! HE'S 16 AND HE'S GANNA BE A JUNIOR AT DA NEXT YEAR, WE'RE RUNNING OUT OF TIME. IT CAN BE FOR ONE OR TWO YEARS, IVE GOT ALL THE DETAILS, PLLLEEAASSEE SOMEONE LET ME KNOW! CALL ME (AUDREY HELOW) AT 733-0730

Tuesday...

2003-04-29T18:01:41Z

I STILL havent found out whether Stu got in or not..we're waiting, DA is so unorganized they take forever..
Anyways, it's only Tuesday and it feels like Friday..uhhhhg!
I just took a really hard Chem. test, no idea how I did.
I miss Stuart so much.
The Orchestra is at State today, so some of my best friends are gone :( They get home later tonight though.
Im in French...Ms Metheny-nicest teacher ever!
Anyways, there's not much to say at the moment, but I hope everyone has a great day!

STU!

2003-04-25T15:31:31Z

Stu I haven't seen a comment from you yet, so when you find out-comment on this and tell me! i love you!

By the way

2003-04-24T19:50:29Z

Stuart and Chris : just wanted to let you know, I did an ollie today on my sidewalk, and rolled after it too! haha, it was small and pathetic, but I was excited..it's getting there...

"knowing nothing is better than knowing at all.." - The Used

2003-04-24T16:26:26Z

So I DID stay home sick today...
I REALLY didn't need to miss any more school - but if I had gone, I would have been miserable, which could be worse.
Kate, did in fact, go to school today. I hope she listened to my mix tape on the way..I spent some time on that last night.
Ive only been up since noon..and I'm only getting more and more anxious to hear Stu's results from DA..
I just saw kids playing outside through my window, I thought they were skipping school- then I remember that some private schools, such as BK, are just now having spring break..so they get the good weather! jerks! haha
I wrote Chris a note like 2 or 3 days ago, and every time I try to give it to him something goes wrong, it's probably worthless now..but he WILL get it tomorrow.
I'm behind in all my classes, including my usual best classes. Chemistry BLOWS-she gave us a worksheet for homework that she announced "is basically the worksheet from hell" ....coming from her, that means a lot! I haven't even attempted yet...not to mention my THREE (so far) tests I have to makeup...
SCHOOL SUCKS SCHOOL SUCK SCHOOL SUCKs...LET'S ALL QUIT! (i wish)
I actually miss my friends today, since Im stuck alone at home..it's depressing..I wish school would end NOW, it's only 12:23...I guess I could hangout w/ some BK friends..but Im sick, so I can't.
I hope everyone is having fun at school!

31 days till summer break...

2003-04-24T01:07:54Z

..Did I mention I'm sick? Stu and I's family's have this tradition of getting eachother sick every time we're together. Well this time Meredith(my little sister) came home sick-from Garth (Stu's older brother) before long, Dad had it, Kt had it, and today I got it! yey! uhhhhg, Ive been sick more this year than EVER before-progress reports came today, Im not progressing, Im slacking. Im so SICK of school! So me missing more school becuz of illness is NOT going to help...the world of cough drops and make-up work has just begun..

DA called Stu today, his brother didn't answer the phone...so I guess he finds out tomorrow whether he gets in or not, keep your fingers crossed, he's soo nervous! But no matter what, Im really proud of him! He's done an amazing job at progressing and working for what he wants! I know he'll succeed...

Where have my friends been!? Murph,Chris,EVERYONE! we need to hangout!

Cheyenne and I rode the bus today (my first time this year!)Cheyenne had parked her car at my house, and KT had practice. Cheyenne and I were walking the short distance home from the bus stop..as a truck drove by I heard a hoot from the window, I rolled my eyes assuming it was just another dirty guy. Then I heard my name coming from some speaker phone! I was like whhhhhaaat!? I turned around and saw the truck turning around and coming back shouting my name..it was Jerry! Omg I hadn't seen him in forever!!! I missed him! It turns out his cell phone is somewhere in the ocean, so he didn't have my number anymore. We need to hangout.

Anyways- I dunno if I'll feel up to school tomorrow..we'll see..my Mom just said she's getting it now too, so my whole fam. is sick. great...haha well hope things brighten up soon...
love/miss everyone!

A little Trip to Heaven...

2003-04-23T01:56:09Z

...wow..I dont know if anyone remembers me saying before, how every week i spend w/ Stuart, ends up being one of the best weeks of my life..well I said that...and I have once again, proved that to be true.
We were together for 12 days, 7 of them being at my house, and the rest at his. Funny part is..that's the longest amount of consecutive days we've spent together..pretty sad actually.
It's pretty amaxing actually..we have a stronger relationship than any other couple I've seen, and we probly have seen eachother 1/1000 of what everyone else sees of eachother, maybe less actually... we are continually ripped apart by having to leave eachother every time we're together, and spend months w/o eachother- and w/ only the internet and phone for contact, which don't do enough-at all! It's nothing like in person. Other couples probably talk on the phone/internet as much as we do, in fact probably more- ON TOP of the fact they see eachother like every day. I've always liked pointing out how unfair it is that we have to go through this..but you know, life just isn't fair-and me complaining isn't changing anything. So I'll point out a few positives: my emotional strength has grown 100 times more than it was before I was w/ Stu. Having to go from one moment being happier than I ever have been in my life, to the next moment being 1000 miles away from that happiness-just that quick. Walk onto the plane- and it's over. It's the BIGGEST let-down ever. Ive gone through it too many times, and every time it only gets worse. But you know what- Stu and my heart's have only grown stronger. Probably stronger than most the people out there. I never doubt the fact that we will get married. Most couples have to overcome many hard obstacles when they decide to get married, it all changes. Stu and I are lucky, in a way, we've already overcome more than most couples will ever go through. So we know if we can last this long w/o being together- we can do anything! We've lasted 9, soon to be 10, months already! I think w/in those 9 months, we've both grown emotionally BIG TIME.

So Stu came down for his audition.(we're waiting to hear from DA..it should be soon!) He was at my house for a week-we had lots of fun..beach,mall,jazz fest..etc. Then-for the first time ever, we flew back to his house-TOGETHER! Along w/ my little sister. It was AWESOME! We got back to his house and it was 40 degrees. yikes! Luckily it got warmer as the week went on..but either way- I still had the time of my life. Stu repeatedly apologized for his house "being so boring" but he had no idea..I couldnt' have been happier- see the amazing thing about Stu (one of the many) is, you could sit there and do absolutly nothing w/ him all day long, and wake up the next morning feeling like you had had the greatest day ever! And you would have.
Stu and I had the most amazing talk, it was late at night-dark out- we were sitting in the dead center of the street together (we occasionally had to dive out of the way to keep from getting hit by cars) but other than that, it was really comfortable. We talked for over an hour Im sure...I actually started to cry becuz the talk was just so amazing. Every time I talk to Stu, I feel even closer to him afterwards. If Stu and I ever get upset about something, it's usually me freaking out over a little nothing, or a misunderstanding- but it's good for us, we need to have those once in a while, otherwise it's not a true relationship...and after each one, we only grow stronger. We can talk anything out...I could never actually be angry at him..he's too perfect.I've never even questioned being w/ him, I already know he's the one for me. It's a fact.
So Easter was awesome, we went to church, found our easter baskets in the yard, ate at his Aunt's..it was wonderful.
Then the last day came...we took a long, awesome walk. Tried to be happy together as long as possible. But I have to say-getting on the plane that night, was the hardest thing I've ever done. It felt so empty not having him sitting there beside me, it felt like he was actually SUPPOSED to be there. Everything is so unsatisfying w/o him now..even being in my own house w/o him doesn't feel right...I can't wait till he's here for good...
* If anyone has any ideas for a home for Stu to board at, let me know

Anyways back to my point. Every time I spend w/ Stu-is the best time Iv'e ever had. It only gets better...I could go into more detail..but this is enough for now.... I love you Stuart. Forever. You're the most beautiful person I've ever known...

STU'S HOUSE

2003-04-18T17:27:59Z

It's Friday, IM FINALLY AT STU'S! We got here yesterday around 1. I love being here, even though its cold!!! I hope it warms up for Easter. Anyways I dont know what we're ganna do today yet...but I love being w/ him- so no matter what, I have fun :)
Hope everyone back in Jax is having a good time! Love yall

Hey guys!

2003-04-10T00:25:34Z

I feel like tomorrow is friday, but it's definitely Thursday..AND STU IS COMING!!! WOOHOO! It blows my mind, I cant even accept it yet! Wow we're ganna have sooo much fun. I should skip school but my parents wont let me, BLOWS! Stu auditions for DA on Monday so everyone wish him luck!
Today I did the silent protest supporting gays being accepted in society, I didnt talk all day, I was pretty amazed at myself!

(oh by the way,Erin, I need my clothes back, and I think you might have my green tie-dye shirt, if you could bring my stuff to school..thanks!)

Anyhow- I hope everyone had a good day..you know mine was funny...see I had written in my planner that our chemistry test(that my life depended on) was friday...and you know the funny part was it was actually today...and the even funnier part was i hadn't studied, and I didnt find out it was today till I was IN CLASS..yea so it actually wasn't really funny AT ALL...Im actually dead..but lets just pretend Im not...
Well Ive got homework to do now and stuff...but I love you guys and I'll c ya tomorrow!(if you go to school w/ me) OR IF YOU'RE STU!!

THREE DAYS LEFT....

2003-04-08T01:57:22Z

School was...better than a typical Monday..and I dont even know why! haha- I think it's just that I'm excited about Stu coming Thursday! WOOHOO! This song is dedicated to him:

Summertime- MAE

Summertime, summertime brought me back to thinking you were mine all those
times. We laid it down and left it all behind, we were blind. Oh, the
summertime. We could ride, we could ride. Take my hand and watch the world
go by. Laugh or cry, well we need to try, get off the line, time to fly. Oh,
the summertime.

Go on ahead and let it fade away. No looking back you know the past will
stay. It's you and me, we could get out of here. Jump in and go and we could
drive for years. We could feel alive...

Here we are, here we are, windows down we see a falling star. Stop the car.
Wait for nothing but our beating hearts, going far. Oh, the summertime. So
feel the air, feel the air, take the map and point to anywhere. I don't
care. Fingers through your hair, the sky I've seen is blue and green. Oh,
the summertime

Driving away, leaving it all behind. Driving away, just driving away.

* Anyways--I'm still pissed about missing out TWICE on working at Outer Limitz, so if anyone knows about another place like it (surf/skate shop near me, like core) that's hiring ever, let me know..I'm trying to work on my skating, I still suck and can't do anything, Im trying to learn to ollie now-I hate sucking, but I hear everyone does when they start...
Stu's coming!!!!!!
Our vocal concert is Friday-come, PLEASE!
'Love Left Ashes' has a show on Saturday at Voodoo, you should try to go...they haven't had a show in a long time..and theyre gettin pretty darn good..
Cheyenne and I were talking about things that are 'genuine' today, because she had some homework assignment that was dealing w/ it. I decided on my list of genuine things: 1. eyes-eyes NEVER lie, it's the true window to someone's heart.. 2. pain- the look of agony is never fake.. 3. Stuart- it's not easy finding a truly good, genuine person these days...I'm so lucky I found one...

*Chis-smile! :)

I love you guys..

Blues Fest @ Jax Beach!

2003-04-05T16:48:36Z

Hey guys! I'm getting ready to head out to the beach, I'll probably be there till kinda late tonight cuz the blues fest! I think everyone should come tonight! I'll probably be at my beach house for most the day until night so if you're coming out there and you know where my beach house is you can stop by--hopefully I see a lot of people there tonight! Everyone help Erin Long get a ride out there! :) Anywaysm love you guys-come tonight!

Friday...

2003-04-04T21:02:16Z

School was WAY long! Atleast it's Friday...Im not in a great mood, becuz ONCE again- I was offered a job at Outer Limitz (the one in regency mall) and my parents wouldn't let me take it becuz 'its too far away'..Im pissed, AND I dont have any plans yet...I hate not having plans on Friday night-It's such a waste....so if you're my friend and you're reading this Friday and it's not too late- if you have something to do, give me a call! 733-0730
Hope yall have a great weekend!

Half-way through the week...

2003-04-03T02:02:17Z

Chris tripped me this morning. Actually- it's funny, cuz he usually tries to trip me and it never works. But today, he didn't even try- and it happened. Somehow while we were walking he turned around and hit me and i lost my balance and tripped and as I was flying face first torwards the concrete, he managed to grab my backpack just soon enough so that my face didnt smash into the ground. I did manage to still fall and it my hands, but I was ok.

~ A BEAUTIFUL SONG BY A BEAUTIFUL PERSON ~
"Over and Over"
Verse
the days apart, all the things to worry
the day by day hearing of all the others
Chorus
over n over hearing of all the nights
the guys, what could they be doing
im goin crazy
Verse
the stupid little jokes
they all think its fun n games
but agony and pain are the results
to this stupid little thing
Interlude/Solo thingy
Chorus
hearing all the days of all them together
she says nothings gonna happen
how would i know f something was to
Verse
"theyre just friends, nothing will happen"
the only thing running through my head over and over
its so hard they don't even know, why can't it just end
............Man, jealousy just kinda sucks...